Empty...

Well, its end of school and there quite a few birthdays and event coming up before I will get a job and start working. For now i'm learning driving to enrich my free time now... =)

Ive went to few places here and there around singapore for the past few days to settle some stuffs. Well, dunno why, the world im looking at now seem so lifeless and colorless... Staring at the in coming buildings on the bus, looking at different people and listening to all sorts of noise seems so fake to me now... Everything seems to be a illusion for me and i really want to get out of it... Fading color seems to overwhelm me, and I seems extremely very lost and helpless... haha.. wad im saying man... Well, watched a few anime dis few days too... it stimulate alot of thoughts in my mind. Yes.. romance story again... ahaha...

Waiting,

it seems each and every of it will have a scene of the character waiting, waiting and waiting.... Some if them know wad they are waiting for... some dont know what dey are waiting for, but yet each and every one of them jerked some tears out of my eyes... i dun understand why im especially reactive to waiting scenes... i cant help to feel very sad for them... seems like im one of them... So, what im i waiting for? and who? why? i dunno... seems im the latter of these waiting beings... I'm tired... i wish this feeling will vanish... but still my heart still waits...

Numb...

yea... Numbness is what removing emotions and color from my world.... lifeless world... Maybe im forcing myself to be numb. Why do i do that? Weak? Crazy? Maybe... Maybe i just want to wait for someone or something for my whole life... So... Even if the long awaited has come, what will i do? what can i do? Cherish it... Deny it... Let go?

Weak...

Yea.. I'm weak i know... i tried... i tried... my best? i dunno too.. Whats the best? maybe the best is stop thinking abt it now at this moment? ahaha yea... Forget abt it... Im not suppose to write dis kinda rubbish after not coming here for so long... =\

It harder to forget then to remember something...

(will you come? i know you will... but i dunno whether i will be there...)

Mood: Alone?